As I saw the lines “inner moonlight”, two things come to my mind: First, is inner moonlight really it? Is life just all about following the compass? Second, doesn’t many people find ironic that the ones who write the best scenes are those who have experienced that scene, and especially in the case of war, are those people who have seen that moment with their eyes, remember that portrait in their minds, and feel that photoshoot with their senses? That people who seem to be out of this world, who seem to be nobodies, and who are even rejected at times by their contemporaries, are those people with minds that transcend even beyond the recesses of the seemingly unlimited imagination…
In this little world that we call Earth, people like me and you live, hoping to live out a good life as a member of the human race and to be able to contribute something to humanity. As for me, I know that I’m just a single person in this sea of seven billion people, but I want to make a difference. I believe that I can make that difference by sharing what I know to people as a teacher of English, and I believe that I can reach out to many other people regardless of race, religion or creed through my writing. But well, it’s all easier to be said than done. Right now, if I were to completely follow my heart and if I had the means to do so, I will just spend hours playing Call of Duty, but luckily, I am not doing that, because I know that I must apply self-discipline and write something, even half a page everyday in order for me not to have my mind and fingers “rusted”. Not to say that I don’t like writing; in the first place, I would never have went down this path if I never loved it…but sometimes, life just tries to grind and at times, tries to say that “it’s not worth your time and effort to do this, no one will read, no one will publish, no one will open doors, etc. etc.”
Doubts, doubts, doubts.
In real life, I am just another person who has gained a sort of second life through coming here to Turkey. Quite literally, because apart from the teachers and dormitory supervisors who helped me through the years, as well as a handful of good friends who are more like brothers anyway, my high school life was a sham compared to the life that I am having here right now, which is a very wonderful life despite having all sorts of problems.
I am not just thankful that I came here to Turkey to increase my perspective, depth, and experience; I am very happy that this place has given me another gift that I never thought of until this very day: Freedom. My experiences here in Turkey has allowed me to be able to freely experiment with form, with style, and forced me to do something about both my life and my writing without having to rely on certain elements, and due to this freedom, my real life has seemed to straighten up and get the balance that it sorely needed, while as for my writing, I believe it has been refined to the point that no one can anymore distinguished between works that were as a result of endless drilling and works that were as a result of sheer inspiration. It has allowed me to create and recreate certain portions in my life, see what’s dark and what’s bright, and synthesize the things that are needed for me to improve into the person that I am today.
I am thankful to the Almighty for giving me all sorts of blessings, both expected and unexpected, and as of the moment… I am getting ready to face the world with a refined heart and a kind soul. I have not done this alone. My inner moonlight would not have sufficed for me to reach this far.
Family, friends, teachers (yes, especially you, and you deserve a mention on this day of yours), and even…detractors; all have helped me to reach the place where I am standing right now. I follow my heart, but I am not doing it alone. I am doing it with the strength of a thousand men, even more; Because I know that I am trying to work for a worthy cause, even though I know that I will never be able to do it in the best way.
PS: I am wishing you a Happy Feast of Sacrifice, to all Muslims all over the world as well as a greeting to everyone! And yes, even though the media endlessly portrays Muslims as “criminals until proven innocent”, humanity will still continue to move on and plant the seeds of good…. I am also wishing every single teacher in the world a “Happy Teacher’s Day”, and I hope that this day will prove special to evry mentor and insturctor that I have met! Thank you very much for reading! Hope you enjoyed the long wall of text! Today’s prompt is entitled “Howl At The Moon“, which talks about inner moonlight and whatnot. Thanks for sailing with this blog!