Today is a very bright day. The sun is up there like a lamp, providing brightness to everything it touches. The trees start to slowly gain their greens up and the air fluctuates between being icy and cool. It is a typical spring day here in Ankara and as usual, I get hit by the flu hammer once again. I sneeze every now and then, and I am also forced to close my eyes as my sinus complains; it comes to the point that tears just come out of my eyes!
I was never a big fan of spring, especially the weather portion of it, because I never get to wear properly. Besides, even though I try to take lots of precautions, I still end up being sick every freaking spring season!
Nevertheless, as far as nature is concerned, I feel pretty much hyped. It is great to hear the birds chirp in the wee hours of the morning, to see the flocks fly as the sun sets and to see the flowers blossom under the sunlight. Besides, having bright skies is a great bonus to have, though to be honest, I never venture too much outside unless I need to do so.
There are also moments when the spring weather seems to be a large lie as it could snow like hell any day in March! Another way to put is that it can be as pleasant as musk or as stinky as sewage…
The reason that I wanted to write about this thing is that this will be the last spring that I will spend here in Turkey; I am very well aware that I must make the most out of it, though I have no freaking idea how to spend it (this is basically the year that I broke out of my shell, so yeah.)
Maybe I should just go YOLO and travel like a nomad, I guess?
Speaking of final moments, I’ve had a weird conversation with one of my friends yesterday.
“How’s everything? It’s been a long time.”
“I’m fine, thanks. You?”
“Everything’s the same you know. Look, did you know that I saw you in a dream?”
“What the heck are you talking about?”
“You were in a completely different place, sitting comfortably at the back of a huge lecture hall.”
Then she went on to say:
“I hope you are saying your farewells. You might never see this country again (obviously referring to the dream)…and good luck with your life, seems you have become much happier there!”
We said our goodbyes to each other and I thought to myself, So I appear inside people’s heads at night? Whew.
To be frank, I’m ready for whatever life throws in my way. I am pretty sure that this time around, I will be able to work out something different!
Spring is a beautiful moment for many people…while at the same time reminding that life is not the straight line that we want it to be. End of the line is that spring is a better season than winter and that it heralds the coming of summer, which is my favorite season of the year anyway.
Well, after hearing that story, I realized that I may not be able to see this place once again; but at the same time, I’m happy because I will get my eternal summer once again.
Today is a good day to walk, so I guess I’ll just grab a Mogu-Mogu somewhere along the way….
Sun, clouds, life.
And life is certainly a thing of beauty.
*Immortals by Fall Out Boy is certainly a beautiful song that expresses my feelings at the moment. I can easily see that I’m counting my days here and I am trying to be able to do something substantial about it!