As of today, I have crossed another line off the list of the things that I am supposed to do here in the city of Ankara. I have visited the mausoleum of the country’s national hero, Mustafa Kemal Ataturk.
I must say that the architecture was colossal and wonderful. I also liked the fact that there was a garden around the complex and believe me, it was extremely refreshing.
It was a good visit. Yeah, it was great to see another one of Turkey’s iconic monuments and get something off it!
Once upon a time, one of my editors told me that being bad is better than being good in some ways.
When you are bad, you have at least two options:
1. Since you are bad, you don’t need to try anymore and you don’t need to waste your time trying that certain field in which you suck.
2. Being bad leaves only with one road to being better: Since you don’t have the talent, you’ll reach that maximum ceiling pretty soon. At least you know that is your maximum level!
But then you know you are good and in fact you are better than a lot of the guys out there…and then you choke at the vital moment? That is just horrifying and head-wrecking to watch!
I wonder how those guys at the booth feel after being unable to deliver (I’m referring to a North American Counter-Strike team called Cloud 9).
Why can’t you keep the advantage, boys?
Then again, you are fighting against the best team in the world at that game.
But still, just make it 3-2 at the worst – and don’t lose in that fashion again!
Having a very good advantage and just unable to close it out is just outright ridiculous.
Sometimes, I really wonder if I can take a break from writing in general. I do not have a writer’s block or something, but I feel that I am just going mechanical – though I am still writing with all of my heart.
Then again, writing is one of those few fallbacks that I have when I face a lot of frustrations in life.
Nice catch-22 to think on, I guess.
Tomorrow, I am planning to go to a museum. But then, maybe I’ll not have the time for it.
Then, sometimes, I am getting tired of doing things solo.
Consistency was never a part of my life. Like I’m always aboard on a hype train where I feel the greatest highs and the worst lows at different points of the year.
I got my new highs and new lows too. I just said quite some time ago that 2015 is my year and it turns out to be quite true in unexpected ways.
Then again, I’d like some consistency and static in my life right now.
I’d like a strong foundation to build the rest of my life on, because talent – and talent alone will not help me do much.
One of the best ways to start being consistent would be my writeups and my newspaper work in general, because here is what another one of my editors said:
“You look like a Mozart in which you write based on what you feel. You write differently each week and you experiment with new stuff every now and then. I don’t say that is bad and I see very huge things coming for you.”
In the same vein, he said:
“Learn how to be consistent. Look at your best articles. See what worked. It is the same with games; once you get tired of that same strategy, then go for the next one!”
Then he also mentioned something of note:
“Clear your heart.”
I’ll do whatever I can!
Sometimes, I am tempted to say that life is just a lie.
But then, that’s just being ingrate and stupid.
It is too tiring to hope at times. Try it.
Nothing in life comes easy. But then, the greatest things in life started at a dim point, no?
Well, I just hope that it will be worth the headaches now.